JuST d’STory

Minority is just ordinary thing, but it always grows more complex while the time goes on. minority is not a weird thing for me, i’ve faced it since i was little. however, when i grows to the more complex environment, it gets more complicated too, especially when it deals with opinion, princip of life, so forth. and it costs expensive.

well,,here is the thing that i’ve faced now,, *i mean the more complicated one..* since i some from yhe minority tribe here, with all hpw i look like. and it was just ordinary when people saw you and sometimes mocked you. with my unnormal height, it was just ordinary when people asked you question, perhaps ordinary, but sometimes it was hurt. but i can still walk through it. now i face the more complicated one.

it deals with princip. n i think i’m in a social condition that wants to be understood but hard to *doesn’t want to learn perhaps* understand others. then i just feel trapped. n it is hard to get out. some reasons for it. first, i’m in that environment that makes me meeting everyday. second, i just have ready to face the consequences; such as, cynical words, n gestures. third, i have to make my self brave to get out from that "safety zone" and walk with my own. n it just hard actually.

however, i feel i’m on the highest point to just let them "hijack" me. and i cannot stand anymore. it’s time to get out. and i’m in progress. i’ve half-done.but soon, IT’S DONE!

*cherish 

*the title is so hyperbole actually*

breaking d’water

well..i’m not goin’ anywhere.just still here, in the box num.18 *fave place for now*..i just erased my old blog n try to make one and done..*saking gapteknya jarang2 saia bisa bikin blog*

fixing means erasing?

i say sumtime fixing something means erasing the old one,n i do it so sumtimes. as this blog,i dunt know why i just want to active my blog again, but i erase the old one and make it new, in order to fix something. but it’s absurd when i cannot fix something by erasing it, even i make it worse..*what i’m talking right now? so absurd*

What picture i am?

well, it’s a little bit "shocking" that my friends dont believe me when i say i’m brokenhearted. *ok not suprising at coz i dont have any right now,,* but they even dont belive that i can feel sad..isn’t it weird?what kind of pic of me that i’ve given ’till they think like that? apa yang udah saia lakukan selama ini? *tuing..tuing..tuing…* bingung banget seh sebenernya,orang beneran lagi sedih kok malah ga dipercaya,,dan saia baru tau hari ini.sampe2 karena tidak dipercayanya saia harus semedi sejenak di luar kelas *kebetulan lagi jam istirahat* then PERHAPS they think i’m serious!! tapi slahnya saia,,setelah masuk lagi, saia malah bercanda lagi ga jelas,,*ga ada tampang sedih2nya banget dah!!*  yah,,well,,it’s my mistake perhaps.

be the sunny girl

i feel like a sun today coz i wear a very really bright YELLOW cardi,,*kalo kata anak2 cinta UI sampe mati* and it’s bright like a sun that cover the misery,,,*hahaha* yah sebenernya ga penting c mau jadi matahari apa gak,,,*lagi ngomong apa c ini…* yang pasti pengen ketemu lagi sama temen BIPAnya Inge yang bernama Kondrat,,*God’s great piece" mungkin dia yang bisa menjadi matahari saia hari ini,,, ^^ tapi sayang tiada kabar dari Inge,,means that no meeting with him…

last but not least

kenapa setiap sampe didepan teknologi yang bernama komputer ini apa yang mau saia tulis jadi aneh?yah maybe later,,ir’s just a first trial,,but btw,i actually feel really sad today but i think i reach the highpoint which makes ask my self,,how is the real feeling of sadness? *** 

*cherish